In July of 2014, my daughter Shelby and I boarded a plane headed for Guatemala. We, along with the rest of the Christ Community team, spent a week serving with Medical Missions Ministry in Guatemala City. This was my first venture outside of the United States as well as my first missions trip. In all honesty, I was very anxious. I wasn’t anxious about flying or traveling outside of the US, I was anxious about sharing the gospel. Anxiety has always been a struggle, but this time it felt debilitating. I felt unqualified and was filled with fear that I wouldn’t be able to communicate the gospel clearly.
On our first day in the village, I shared my fears with one of the ladies on the MMM team. She gently reminded me that my focus was on myself and my words instead of on the Lord. She encouraged me to remember that whether my words were eloquent or fumbling, the Lord would speak his gospel through whomever he chose and he would do it for his own glory. That day, almost that moment, the anxiety I had been clinging to lifted. Throughout the week, during our time in the gospel sharing stations, my words were never perfect. However, I was able to relax in the knowledge that the Lord had it under control. I was also able to fully enjoy watching the Lord call His people to himself while we were there. I stood in awe of the beauty of His creation and thoroughly enjoyed the people of Guatemala. So, when I think back over that week, I remember how I started out clinging to anxiety and how the Lord reminded me to cling to him. He is so good! He allowed me to experience a heart lesson that continues to teach me when I struggle with anxiety.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7